flabbergasted

So today i woke up happy and looking forward to the dance workshop thing with Peichen. As usual, i just slapped on a t-shirt and a pair of ripped jeans (and duh, converse), ate a speedy breakfast and when i got to the hall, the sun was literally scorching hot. it was soooo hot that i wondered if i'd be boiled alive in my own sweat. seriously, it was like an oven. A FRIGGING OVEN.

Peichen was like "Lovelyn, it's so hot... there're only two fans inside" and immediately i rued my decision in coming. what did i get myself into again??? i tied my hair back into a pony tail (like i do in school) and pinned my fringe so my face felt the occasional (very occasional) breeze.

My self esteem was completely, totally and utterly wayyyy down low when hoards of guys congregated next to us. yeah.. uh oh! peichen's dancing mates showed up a little while after. They were indeed a bouncy bunch. friendly. sociable. they mostly spoke mandrin... uh oh again. gathering every mandrin word that Peichen and Ya Wan and my other classmates have taught me, i attempted to make conversation. BIG FRIGGING UH OH

I literally had to whisper every word to myself before i spoke. I don't want to seem like a "banana" (y'know.. yellow [chinese]on the outside but white [western] on the inside). My whole life has been filled with insults on my inability to speak chinese... gahhhh.... and now that my mandrin has improved a smidge, I decided to put it to the test...

Unfortunately, my depleting self esteem deprived me of that and i ended up bluttering english instead... Peichen spent most of her time with me and i THANK HER FOR THAT!! If it weren't for her, i'd probably sink into the cement, dragged down by my incredibly low confidence level.

The instructor took a long time to arrive. a long long time. So when he finally did, everyone flocked into the hall. I'm just gonna skip this part because nothing much happens here.

I was literally taken by surprize when most everyone started dancing... no, not normal dancing like i expected... everyone started breakdancing. "it's a breakdance workshop?! breakdancing??" you have got to be kidding me... ME breakdancing?! someone had better get the paramedics.. STAT.

The other dancers made each move and trick look like a stroll in the park. they were so good! PRO might be the right term to use.Note: it's a girl and she's wearing CONVERSE!!

yeah.. i think i've made my point. I gained a new respect for this dance. My feet feel like they weigh a ton each. I dropped out early cause.. yeah.. i'm not much of a dancer :) serena was there, emma was supposed to come, crystine (tiney-poo) was supposed to come for the afternoon session. Peichen roughed out the entire two days. *APPLAUSE*

But it was fun. With less strangers and more friends, it would have been perfect. i know i know, i'm sounding very anti-social, but you'd be "pai-seh" too if you were new to something and everyone around you was really really good.

Indeed, i am flabbergasted





Lovelyn